pastor robert morris counselor sept 2016

I hung myself on loops of extension cord and I was very willing to die… As I was hanging, nearing death, my sister came in and she saved me. So when the breakup happened and God pulled out the plug, my reaction was “My life is torn to pieces, I’ll just die. So it was there forever and whenever I felt that my heart was bothered by something, I reacted in a certain way that I poured out that trauma. After my suicide attempt, my former professor who is a psychologist tried to process the situation with my mom and she said that the trauma of rape wasn’t healed. PDV: When the trauma was activated by this breakup. There would be times I would go to church first then right after service, I would go to a… motel and just sin that was just very normal for me. I do all those sins… I wasn’t living a life that was pleasing to the Lord.īITS: You said you were religious at that same time? You know I always believed in Jesus but I lived my life as if I’m not a Christian. And so my life didn’t translate to what my faith actually was. PDV: I thought I was already there because I thought I know Him, I go to church, people know me to be religious, I thought that was fine. But all the while I knew (of) God, Jesus, His Word I knew He was real but He was never The Lord of my heart.īITS: Were you wanting to follow Him but couldn’t or it wasn’t your desire? PAUL DE VERA (PDV): I grew up in the Christian faith but the encounter was just in 2012 when finally He took out all the plugs and saved me from (attempted) suicide. I wanted to know…… h ow old were you when you finally met God? It was so amazing how God proved Himself alive in your life. Paul agrees to be interviewed (Thank You Lord and Thank you Paul)īUTTERFLYINTHESPRING (BITS): Thank you so much for sharing today. Long story short, by God’s grace I am face to face with Paul before the closing song, “How Great Thou Art.” The sight of him overwhelms me as I’m thinking in hyperlapse of his journey to brokenness and then to restoration, how Jesus changed him, how God is real, how God works, how God moves, how God restores, how prayers are not in vain… Just then, Pastor JP Masakayan passed by so I waved (okay, flailed) at him and he allowed me to come in. I went backstage to see if Paul could be interviewed but the guard did a great job of barring entry of unauthorized persons (Every building needs one like him). Photo grabbed from Paul’s Facebook wall as shared by Ruthie Beltran Paul’s words spoke of loved ones’ (or loving ones’) faith and faithfulness in prayer and God’s faithfulness to respond.

“My mom - who was praying for me every night as I went through God’s disciplining- never gave up on the hope that God will be able to fix everything that was broken… God makes all things new…” -Paul de Vera Praise God for that as I needed it while listening to this young man’s story. I was on my way out of my room yesterday when I remembered to go back to grab a face towel.

He shared his story at 45:18 to 52:33 on yesterday’s teaching by Pastor Ricky Sarthou ( PRAY: JESUS CHANGES LIVES) But on the inside, there were many past unresolved issues that led up to him attempting to hang himself with loops of extension cord. Weeks before graduating, he already had a Planner position in Publicis Manila. Young, handsome, single, riding an upturn in his career in Advertising (the most recent one as Communications Planner at McCann Erickson), Paul de Vera’s life was a picture of success.

He was a two-time PANA IMC Competition Finalist, won as PWU IFG FILM FESTIVAL’s Best Director for his short film, Tanikala, then went on to painting and studio arts. He was a scholar at a Science High School, one of the Ten Outstanding Students in Mandaluyong, a recipient of the PGMA Leadership Award, President of the Central Mandaluyong Student Council, consistent honor student and graduated Summa Cum Laude in Multi-media Arts (also as a scholar) with a recognition on Community Service at the Asia Pacific College.

Pastor robert morris counselor sept 2016